I’ve started this post in my head probably 50+ times. I miss my blog, I miss my readers, I miss social media (facebook and twitter) and commenting on other blogs. The past couple of months have changed me. I am definitely a different person because of it. Saying that life has been a roller coaster – would be the understatement of the year. A lot has happened.
Just over 2 months ago I lost one of the most important things in my life… the constant love and companionship of my beloved Higgy. It was sudden. He got sick on a Wednesday and a trip to the regular vet and another to emergency on Sunday left my husband and I with giant holes in our hearts and a very quiet and empty car ride home. I have not been the same since. I won’t ever be the same. I can’t even say his name out loud or in my head without tearing up. He was more special to me than I could ever explain in a blog post, status update or tweet.
My angel Higgy gave me my life back after the sudden death of my first husband. It was because of him that I was able to sleep, smile and open my heart to love again. I think we both gave each other exactly what we needed in life. He helped me become the person that I am today and I in return was the best dog mommy I could be, by giving him the most comfortable life possible. I now add Higgins to the list of angels that continue to look out for me.
I made a promise to myself to get back to cooking and blogging… but how could I do that without talking about Hig and my absence from the Internet? He was such a major part of my life, my writing and my blog over the past 9 years. I need blogging back in my life. So I’m putting away the convenience foods, dusting off my camera, cleaning out the pantry and clipping recipes from the foot tall stack of magazines I plan to attack. I can’t say when or how often I will post, the plan is to ease back into things.
I will miss my little kitchen buddy… and I will certainly miss the Higga stares and licks I got as I laid on the floor to get the perfect food shot.